INSECURITY

I’m the girl that wanted to commit suicide, I’m the girl that wanted to hurting myself,  but now realizes how hurt people would be if I took my own life. 

Have you ever laid on your bed at the night and just cried because you’re not good enough? Counted all your flaws and felt worse about yourself. Cried because of all the comments that people blurt out, actually hurt?

People think insecurity is about being sad. They think it’s just when you ‘feel down’. It’s not It’s like a darkness that creeps over you and fills you. It drains all your emotions. It takes everything from you, and leaves you feeling hollows and numb. It’s not sadness, It’s not anger, It’s hopelessness. Imagine waking up and there being no colour. Walking outside and feeling no wind. Eating a meal and tasting nothing. Holding someone and feeling completely alone at the same time. When you’re insecure, it’s not a bad mood. It’s a numb, empty, hollowness that seems to never leaves. You feel like there’s no hope left. 

 

I've been going through hard times. Until the day I heard 'Who Says' I feel like....I found a new life. Before I know Selena, I always wish to be somebody else. But after I knew her, my life is totally changed. I be my self, and I'm...me.